Category: Mummy blog

3rd January 2020

UNDERSTANDING

“Does Otis know that there’s going to be a new baby?”

I have been asked this question sooooo many times. And my honest answer is that I actually really don’t know.

He knows there’s a baby in my tummy. He gives the baby cuddles and kisses. He feels the baby move. He says “hi baby” and waves to my tummy. When I get dressed he points to my bare belly and says “baby! It’s cute!”.

Everyone always asks him “what’s in Mummy’s tummy?” and he will always tell them it’s a baby and when asked boy or girl, he will say “baby girl”.

But….

Barely anybody else talks to him about when the baby comes out of mummy’s tummy or when the baby is here or even when the baby is in our house. The responsibility of making him understand there were be a physical baby here seems to have fallen completely on us. And that’s fine of course, we are trying our best to help prepare him by asking him where the baby will sleep and talking about bath time and play time with baby etc. But in all honesty, I’m not really sure he will fully get it until the baby is here. So we shall see!

2nd January 2020

To my darling boy,

I’m not making any new year’s resolutions for 2020. My biggest goal in life nowadays is to just be the best Mummy I can be for you.

I promise you if I’m not by your side to share moments with you on new adventures, I will either be behind you to support your independence or in front of you, to help show you the way if you ever feel lost.

I promise to always tell you how loved and how special you are.

I promise to always make the most of the time we spend together.

I promise that your happiness will always be the cause for my own happiness.

I promise you happiness for every, single day.

I love you more than you could ever know, my little Prince.

I’m excited to be stepping in to 2020 with you ❤️

With love, Mummy x

28th December 2019

🌲OH, CHRISTMAS TREE 🌲

I’m currently sat here removing the baubles from our tree and daydreaming about next Christmas already. I can’t believe that this Christmas, our last as a family of 3, Otis’ last as an only child, has actually come to an end.

This year my great Aunt gave us 3 very special tree decorations that she handmade (swipe to see). They are stamped with our names and pressed with my great Nan’s lace so her memory still very much lives on with us! I look at them and think of how much she would have adored Otis. All she told us every time we saw her was how much she was praying for us to finally be blessed with our baby. She’d be over the moon that we are now expecting baby number 2! And I also look at the decorations and wonder what baby’s name will be.

I’m just a week and a half from due date now and each day I’m starting to feel a little more ready than the day before. Although I’m not sure I’ll ever be ready for a Christmas with 2 little ones to think about, it is certainly manic enough with just one! 🙊 but what I do know is it will be double the magic, double the fun, double the excitement – for all of us!

1st December 2019

❤️MIDWIFE OTIS ❤️

This afternoon we surprised my parents (who live 80+ miles away) with a visit. My Mam is a midwife and so she had a good feel for position of Littlest Pea and also used her Doppler to listen in to baby’s heartbeat. Otis was very interested in this and had a go at searching for the heartbeat himself. He enjoyed moving it around on my tummy and listening to the different sounds. To say I was covered in gel by the end of it would be an understatement 🙈

I realise these photos are not your typical “Blog worthy” photos, but they are some of the most precious ones I own of a moment I will never forget and so I had to share them anyway 😍

8th November 2019

Dear Littlest Pea,

At the moment I feel like I have you all to myself. Only I can feel you move. Only I know when you’re asleep or awake. Only I know when you have hiccups. At the moment, all these little moments are just between me and you and a very selfish part of me loves that fact. However the biggest part of me is so excited for you to be born so I can share you with the world. So many people are excited for your arrival and can’t wait to shower you with their love. But above everything, I can’t wait to watch the bond develop between you and Otis. I can imagine he’s going to be fascinated by you and I’m sure he will want to give you lots of cuddles!

I love you so much,

Mummy x

1st November 2019

Oh Littlest Pea,

You have been kicking and wiggling so much today and your movements are so strong now that sometimes they make me jump as you catch me by surprise. I imagine what you’re doing in my tummy: are you stretching your arms? Or maybe you’re giving your legs a little kick? I really can’t tell, but I feel like my tummy has been non-stop moving all day. Probably because Otis and I have stayed home and relaxed so I’m aware of you more. What I do know is that I love you so much already, and I haven’t even met you yet. How is such a love even possible? I can’t wait to cradle you in my arms instead of cradling my tummy in my hands!

I’m always thinking about you.

Lots of love,

Mummy x

22nd October 2019

29 weeks pregnant today!

Hello 3rd Trimester! 👋🏼

Dear Littlest Pea,

So we have made it to Dubai. Ok must admit that at times during the flight, I did worry about how that could be one of the worst places to go into labour. It feels weird being here knowing that this is our last family holiday without you. I know that you are kind of here with us anyway, but I keep thinking about from here on Otis will always have you to play with instead of just me and Daddy and I imagine you being best friends. I can’t wait for those holidays too, they will be extra special with both of you to share the memories with.

You are drawing a lot of attention at the moment, especially at the airport! I guess it’s kind of uncommon to see such a bump going on a plane. To be honest I don’t think I’ve seen many pregnant mummies-to-be on our holidays before either. I can’t wait until you’re here so we can start sharing these experiences with you too. Although I think I can manage waiting for the next 11 weeks so please do hang on in there until due date!

Love you,

Mummy x

13th October 2019

🦶🏼Thurs 10th Oct: Today Daddy felt you kick for the first time

🦶🏼Sat 12th Oct: Today Otis felt you kick for the first time

Dear Littlest Pea,

At 27 weeks pregnant, both your Daddy and your big brother felt you kick through my tummy for the first time. I have tried getting your daddy to feel for your kicks a few times, but it seemed that as soon as he put his hand on my belly, you calmed down and stopped kicking! Then on Thursday evening as we were watching The Apprentice, you were having a proper little wiggle and he managed to feel you move 4 times! It made Daddy want to talk to you more and I loved being able to share your special movements with him.

I thought it would be quite a while before Otis felt you kick and last night I wasn’t expecting him to react to your movements at all! We had just got home from London and it was about 11pm. He was cuddled up to me on the sofa after a long journey home and resting his head on my belly. I could feel you move on the other side, but then you kicked him right in the head (🙈) and he reacted by sitting bolt upright, babbling loudly and said “there!” as he pointed to my tummy and the area where you had just kicked. He looked me straight in the eyes for a few seconds waiting for me to explain to him what just happened so I asked him “did the baby just kick you?” and he said “yes!”

I love that I can now share these magical moments with both your daddy and your big brother and they become even more of a part of our journey together!

Love you,

Mummy x

10th October 2019

Baby’s it’s cold outside ❄️

Dear Littlest Pea,

Today was a tough day. I had my glucose test and after it started so well, it took a sudden turn as I almost passed out in the waiting area. I was terrified, not just because I was rapidly losing my sight and hearing, but because I was worried about you. You seemed to know this because despite my body giving up slightly, you were there kicking away the whole time. In fact you didn’t stop, you gave me constant reminders you were ok and we were in this together. Well that’s what I like to think; the midwives seemed to think you were just telling me you were hungry and were saying “feed me, Mummy”!!🙈 maybe they were right because when we finally made it to the end of the test and I had a packet of crisps, you stopped kicking!

It happened almost an hour into the test. I’d already had my bloods taken and drank the super sweet drink. We were doing great, sat in the waiting area as I was writing about our second trimester together in my pregnancy journal. Then all of a sudden I text your daddy to say I felt sick. Then in seconds I went clammy and dizzy. I kept blinking, but it was quickly getting worse so I said to a lady sat next to me “excuse me, I feel really dizzy”. Bless her, she quickly ran for help even though she was pregnant too. Within seconds she returned with a midwife and when they got to me my hearing was almost gone and I could just hear echos. I could feel myself panicking thinking if I collapse, what if I fell on to you? How could I protect you if I fainted?

Thankfully they almost carried me to a bed and once I laid down my senses came back and you started kicking like you’ve never kicked before. I held my tummy tight, I wanted to tell you how sorry I was for having to put you through this with me, but also thank you for making sure I didn’t feel alone.

I’m now really anxious about getting the result back as I know if it is positive, that will change all my plans for your birth. But at the same time I know we will figure it out and one way or another, you will be in my arms soon enough!

Love you,

Mummy x

28th September 2019

🍂 Autumn walks 🍂

Dear Littlest Pea

We are in France and yesterday we went for a nice walk together with your big brother Otis. The autumnal feel hasn’t quite hit France yet, but there are some signs of the seasonal change. We came across an apple tree with fallen apples and leaves below it. As I looked down, my bump was a sweet reminder that you are always with us and I imagined holding you in my arms on a walk like this. I wonder; will you grow up to love autumn? Or will you be like me and live for the long days of summer? So far I know that my walks seem to put you to sleep, but laying down seems to wake you up!

I can’t wait to meet you and learn everything about you!

Love from Mummy x